|Don't Do It!|
unrelentingly unbearable. Days when the insecurity, stagnation, and just the flat out hopelessness of your life will get to you and you will not be able to see that there will ever be a way out. It's also very likely that while this sounds pessimistic, it could very well be true.
Deep down you cradle your hopes and dreams but even deeper down than that you know you have to come to terms with where you ended up on the financial scale. You have to come to terms with the fact that it's quite possible you will live like this or even worse till the end of your days.
If this seems just a little dark consider the facts surrounding you that your best efforts to stay above water have gotten you where you are right now. Perhaps, if you lived in a different world or a different country things might have turned out better but that's not what happened and it's neither here nor there at this point.
The only thing that matters now is how you deal with now and some days are bound to be better than others. On occasion, however, you will have to deal with that one day that for whatever reason feels like it will do you in. On these days, you may either be filled with incredible anger or it's opposite, incredible sadness. Sadness is easier to deal with but basically they are the same animal.
The first thing to keep at the fore front of your mind on a day like this is that nothing, absolutely nothing on this earth lasts forever. This hour will end, this feeling will end, this day will end, this problem will end, whatever it is that's happening that seems so painful to you on this day will ultimately vanish into thin air, of this you can be sure. When everything feels like it's falling down around you, this is the one thing you can absolutely count on.
If you can, think back to a time at least a year or two ago when you were completely panicked and sure that nothing was going to work out. Chances are that nothing you thought would happen if it happened at all did not happen anywhere close to the horrific way you thought it would. It's the same thing now so just relax. Take the day off.
First off, you can only do what you can do and once stress gets a hold of you that will be even less than usual. Most people don't understand the tremendous pressure a poor person goes through on a daily basis and they don't have the slightest idea of how these things can build up and paralyze a person.
That's when the day from hell will catch you and even things that you thought couldn't go wrong will. You may come down with the flu, the babysitter will show up drunk or not at all, your car won't start, and you will realize that very last twenty dollar bill you thought you had for gas is no where to be found (Did you spend it? You have no idea, your brain is shot.) all on the same day.
Yes, there will be days like this but you won't die. Chances are very, very good that you will still be here tomorrow and a year from now you will look back and wonder why you were so upset.
So hang in there. I know what your going through and it's still okay. One way or another it will all be just fine.